Because that is what this post will help me do - Cheer up. Well, I hope.
I have a lot to say but I am a person who thinks too much before she acts. I would LOVE to rant but my problems seem minor compared to others so I feel awful if I'm here, being a moany teenager while someone is suffering much more than me.
My problem is I can't say no. I have a fear of upsetting people and I couldn't live with myself if I knew I was hurting someone by not doing it. Last year, I was told I caused someone very close to me to cry over the phone to a family member because of something I did. I caused someone that distress and I felt horrible, and I still do. What hurt more, though, were comments sent in my direction which were spiteful and uncalled for because they didn't just hurt me but the person I hurt as well. I can't believe a human could tell someone the things I was told. I know I caused the comments in the first place, I'll admit. But this person should have had the decency to say what they said in a different way, at least. Instead, they made me fear the power of words and I can clearly remember what I was told that day but I won't post it here, because then I'd have to explain the whole back-story and I couldn't do that.
What I will say is thought we hurt those nearest and dearest to us, our actions that follow will decide whether we went to hurt them on purpose or by accident. I guess I am still learning that myself but one day, I hope that will click.
I guess I'll finish here because I got that out of my system.
- Skully :3
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